Well, I have started a blog. Why? Because I find them endlessly interesting and inspiring to read - I thought I might join the party. In practical terms - I am doing this to streamline my thoughts into one handy location and support myself to becoming more of the person I want to be.
I am a first year secondary school teacher in New Zealand. I find this job rewarding, exciting, supportive, interesting, and for the most part - such a thrill. If I am honest though, I also find it brings out feelings of lonliness, crises of confidence, fear, uncertainty, and plain worry. Why lonliness? I ask myself that because it is such a social job. However, it is also one where your colleagues are negotiating just as many deadlines, classroom issues etc etc...and sometimes - sharing these thoughts is not something that everyone is excited about.
As a person, a woman and an adult - I have less control over the second set of emotions that I would like and find it hardest to motivate and appreciate the first set of emotions. My brain is full of ideas that I think could support me to developing into the professional I aspire to be, but something tends to hold me back. I struggle with fatigue, chronic procrastination, and not a lot of self belief.
I am a little sick of all of that. So here we go with a proactive change. Fingers crossed I can stick at it.
This blog hopes to serve two purposes.
1. Somewhere where I can get my thoughts down about my life as a first year teacher
2. Somewhere were I can document my process as a teacher working towards registration.
It might shift and evolve into something completely different. Well, if that's the case, then so be it.
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